A Slow Day, but an Exciting One.

                This post is going to be on the short side. I have officially started the Tarot class; however I haven’t done much reading for it yet. I did however purchase the Waite-Smith deck to learn from, which I have a feeling will be very beneficial for me. I tried to do a reading from it, but trying to learn the information in the little booklet it comes with is like trying to read a foreign language. It’s hard to understand, which I am really hoping the class will help with. Tomorrow I will most likely have a better update, since I will probably do most of the reading for lesson one. I also went to get some more incense today which I’m excited about, and found a pendant with the sun, moon, and pentagram on it. It was almost like it was screaming at me to get it. I kept putting it back, but after coming back to it MULITPLE times, I decided to get it. All and all, it’s been a pretty good day. :D

What to do, what to do.

                I have officially finished reading the entire first lesson. I have about 25 days before my first exam in the class. I will say I am nervous. I do not usually get bad grades, and when I do I sort of fall apart. I thought about getting a mentor to help me, but I can’t bring myself to ask. In my mind I keep hearing tutor and that I’m not good enough if I need a mentor. Here I am extremely excited about learning all of this new information about something I love, but yet when I think about asking for guidance I feel physically ill. I’m not really sure what that means exactly. I have taken extensive notes, to the point where my hand hurts from writing so much down in my notebook.

                I have also found myself in an interesting spot. My best friend was looking into Wicca as well. When I found out, I got super excited and started telling her about research I had done just to find out where to start. Because she has so much on her plate right now, it looks like she won’t be taking any of the classes right now or ever. I have no problem with that, that is her decision and she needs to do what is best for her. However, she wants me to teach/inform her of the information that I have learned. It was very hard for her to understand that I did not want be disrespectful to the religions, but I also was not qualified to do that. I explained to her that there is a hierarchy in many forms of Wicca. She just didn’t quite get it until I explained it to her using the example of me and my older brother when he was practicing his Kung Fu. After that, she understood some. I told her if she wasn’t ready for the class itself, maybe right now was the right time for her to learn Wicca. She needs to figure out what’s best for her.

                I have also found myself wondering if I should take the beginner Tarot class. Its 20 weeks with exams every 14 days. I’m a little worried about the work load since I am still recovery from surgery.  I don’t want to end up overloaded and with bad grades. I am rather confused. I guess I have some things to mull over.